And of course, like many I am sure, I would feel disgusted after I had cum and swear to never do it again.īut eventually I would find myself doing the same thing again and the pattern would repeat itself every few weeks. I didn't have feelings about men, but there was something about cocks that attracted me. I had even masturbated a few times watching a woman sucking a cock until it exploded on her face or in her mouth and picturing myself in her position. I had wondered for a couple years, when alone, horny and watching porn on the computer, what it would be like to suck a cock. I read the ad and was surprised how it made me feel. You and I both know you need to suck cock.